Momentum

A new question I've started asking myself this morning (far, far later than I should have…): What have I done to keep up the momentum today?

I know we both have our own lives and there will be days when doing anything at all is going to be impossible for one or both of us. But I cannot let those days stretch on into a week, weeks, months… And I can't make you pull all the weight.

So, to that end… what have I done to keep up the momentum today?

Well, to be fair to me, it's early yet, lol. But… The last thing I've done was to check with you (specifically) about your availability for my little shindig, and hit “like” on your old profile photos in the middle of the night. Beyond that… all I've done is reacted positively to you. And, sure, that's important. But you've initiated every conversation we've had since then so far, including (and especially) the middle of the night message… And, sure, after that one they've all been about business, but they've all also ranged from super pleasant to playful.

I need to do more. I need to pull my own weight.

I want to know everything about you because I just… want to know everything about you. You are fascinating to me, my curiosity about you is as insatiable as my… Ahem. But I also want to know everything about you, so I have a larger pool to draw from for figuring out things you might be interested in. I can't just show you a photo of every Doctor Who bumper sticker I see (or… can I? I get the most incredible rush each and every time you make some Zelda reference…). And, yeah… I've been working on that song a bit every day, but you won't see that until it's done…

This is something I've known for a while that I need to get better at. Well, now I'm really going to make myself focus on it. I think we managed to kick this thing into a higher gear last weekend. The last thing I want to do now is let it drop back down to idle.

I'm going to figure it out, my love. I have to.

I love you.

Yours,
♒️