You

I know this is a recurring theme, but… gosh. I need to get to know you better. I mean, aside from the fact that I have an all-consuming need to know you better, I just…

You keep showing interest in my own interests and hobbies.Validating them, I realized the other day. And, what have I done in response?

Shown them off, lol. Basked in your attention. Ok so fine, the thing last night was me satisfying a request of yours (and I should have said… I am always open to requests from you… you are absolutely a driving force behind that particular hobby… maybe the driving force…).

But, what about your hobbies and interests? What do you like? What does an idle hour for ⭐️ look like?

I suppose maybe the flower photos thing a couple of weeks ago was good. You have told me that you like to take nature photos… And if I happen to see some Doctor Who thing on a car or something, I won't sit on it waiting until the next time I see you anymore… these days, that'll be a text, lol. But, what else?

I'm probably selling myself short. I probably know more than I'm thinking of at the moment. We've talked about any number of things… I guess I'm just thinking of the other night, you showed me interest in one of my hobbies, and I came back with… stuff about one of my other hobbies, lol. And I think that's probably fine, we had a very pleasant conversation (side note: I am loving how much more we're chatting recently — it's nowhere near enough, but so much better than even just a few weeks ago…), but I need to mix in your interests more.

I dunno. It just feels very stereotypically “man” to just go on and on about my own stuff, and never ask you about yours. And “stereotypical man” is not the vibe I want to give off, at all.

And anyways, the only thing I even really want sometimes is to just know literally everything about you, soooooo… it should be easy, right? Getting better at showing my interest and satisfying my need to know you go hand-in-hand. Lord only knows why it's something I need to get better at, it seems like it ought to be innate… but, I need to get better at it. I will get better at it.

I love you, my Middlemist's Red, rarest of the rare… How I managed to cross paths with you, I will never know, but just having met you makes me one of the luckiest people alive. Falling in love with you was as inevitable as the sunrise… and just as beautiful.

I love you.

Yours,
♒️

PS — Complete side note, but… fuck it. You've made the Aura frame. It's a group photo, but still. I was sorely tempted to add the one of her sitting on your lap at that concert last summer… I feel like I could alllllmost justify it. But ultimately decided against it, lol. That likely would have been too much. Ah, well.