Dream Journal

This one was kinda lame, and not only because you (sadly) weren't in it. It was just, like… my frickin' life, but with the location and people changed. And it seemed like it went on and on and on and on…

“Home” was an apartment. But it had this really weird, very custom bathroom, with all kinds of tile and a tub that was probably hand sculpted and all that. But, I guess the shower had started leaking. And so I called the building maintenance about it, and they said “You broke it, you fix it.” And also, by the way, you need to keep all the original tiles and everything — it had to look exactly as funky when it was fixed as it had before. So then I dreamt about… that. Messing with it. Trying to fix it. Failing a bunch of times. Finally — I thought I had it fixed, and I turned the shower on and then went to go do something while the water heated up, but then when I came back I found a dude in a mall security uniform standing at the end of the bathroom looking angrily down at the floor of the shower. So, I followed his eyes and… it was waaaay worse than before, a whole flood of water coming out of the basin. So I shut the water off, and the dude left. And then I guess I decided to forget about it, because I walked out into the living room and never looked back.

But, while I was in the living room, a bunch of people showed up. Nobody I recognized. Not you, boooo (come on subconscious, you couldn't give me something nice in this one? lol). They all started mingling and such, so I guess it was a party. But then this one guy came over to me and said “Dude, could you, like, open the curtains some more? It's really dark in here…” And I looked around and there was only one window that even had coverings, and it was already open. But I went over to it and pulled the curtains as far to the sides as I could, then turned back to the guy and raised my hands in a “how's this?” gesture. And he goes “Nah, man, it's still reeeeaaally dark in here.” And I looked around and saw the sun shining brightly in windows on all four sides of the room and I was just mystified. And that's all I remember.

So… yeah. My life with some details changed, lol. Though, I'm pretty sure (in real life) I finally fixed the shower. There hasn't been any water downstairs since a few days before I took my recent trip. I plan to fix the ceiling below it this weekend. Gosh, that'll be a relief to have done… And as for dude wanting more light? I dunno. “Nothing is ever good enough” is a theme I am very familiar with, so probably just a reflection of that.

It was a pretty long and sophisticated dream. Hopefully there will be more of those coming. Though… you know… better ones would be nice, lol. Ones featuring you would be very nice… But part of me is just glad I remembered it, even if it was just, I dunno… an expression of my anxieties. Feels like a nice step towards better recall of my dreams in general.

Sad I didn't have a chance to talk to you yesterday. You are the best addiction, and I will always need more… but I know, for now, it can't happen every day. We'll fix that, though. Soon, I hope.

Yours,
♒️