Favorite Person

Babe…

A few years ago, one of those precious few people in this world who both knows who I am, and knows how I feel about you, used to give me dire warnings about getting myself placed into your friend zone. Even back then, I thought it was all a bit silly. You either had romantic feelings for me, or you didn't. If I ended up in your friend zone, then that was always where I was going to be, no matter what I did. Or, at least, that's how I see it. My friend and I ultimately decided to agree to disagree. Of course, these days the question of whether you have romantic feelings for me or not seems to be pretty well settled. The only question remaining is… how will the situation be resolved? But that's for another letter…

But, I was thinking about it today. Thinking about last night. We only had a few moments together, but to me they were… magical. As they always are. And, I dunno… maybe I'm a dummy for taking so very long to formulate this thought, but I realized:

You are my absolute favorite person. By far.

Oh, don't get me wrong… the kids are freakin' great and all. But you. You…

And I realized… sure, my lust for you is ocean-sized. Sure, if love had physical mass, my heart would have collapsed into a singularity, bending the space and time around itself in ways our puny human brains can barely even conceive of, eons ago.

But if you stuck me in your friend zone, I would be ecstatic to be there. Because, even if it meant I would never get to express my love for you in all of the very many ways I want to, I would still get to be around you. I would still get to experience the astonishing joy that just being in your presence brings me. I would still get to spend time with my favorite person in this whole entire wide world.

And, really… that's all I really want… just… time spent with you.

Of course… maybe it's easy for me to make such claims because now I know you haven't. Because sometimes you look at me with a ridiculous intensity that makes my heart race almost to a standstill. Because you have been unrelenting in your quest to create more time spent together. Because it might have taken this stubborn old man a long-ass time to figure it out, but now when I look back I can see that you've been sending me so many signals, just as clear as day, for years.

Still though. I think it's true, lol.

Well. One thing I know is true: I simply cannot wait to see where this thing goes. And I just can't believe you're actually on this ride with me… but you are.

sigh

Goodnight, beautiful. Bippity-boppity-boo, I am so fucking in love with you.

Yours.