Peaceful Easy Feeling

Last night, I posted the Eagles song Peaceful Easy Feeling. I've loved the song for three decades. I've longed to sleep with the woman of my dreams in the desert, with those billion stars all around, for as long as I can remember. It's been making me think of you for close to half a decade now (…or, on some level…probably longer…a decade…maybe…).

But I never really got the part about already standing on the ground. You may have gathered this by now, but… I'm a hopeless romantic. I believe in true love. Heck, I believe I have found true love. When it comes to loving you, my head is always in the clouds, and always will be.

But… something's happened within me in the past couple of months. I couldn't even begin to pinpoint when, or how, but…

Yeah, my head is still very much in the clouds… but, at some point along the way, my feet found the ground.

Things that would have thrown me for a loop a year ago no longer phase me. Oh, I'm not perfect. If I don't see you for a long time, I get to missing you so, so fiercely… But that… that's not really what I'm talking about, anyways.

I've understood our situation since the beginning. I've always known it's not… ideal. Lol. Understatement, much?

But I think what I've finally realized is that you really do truly love me in return. Oh, I've been writing for a couple of years now that I believe that. And I have. But… Now I'm starting to understand it. Your love, it isn't fickle. It endures, is persistent. It tolerates mistakes. It's not a thing I have to fight for, you simply give it to me freely. It's not transactional.

In short, it's the kind of love that I've been dreaming of…

And I get it now. And with that understanding, I get that peaceful, easy feeling. I know you won't let me down… because I'm already standing on the ground.

Yeah. It makes sense to me now, completely.

I love you, beautiful. My life is infinitely better for the simple fact that you're in it.

Yours.