Every Year is Our Year

Aw, babe… what's it gonna be like when I'm allowed to look at you as much as I want to? You're gonna get tired of my eyes consuming you day in and day out… but I won't. God. I will never tire of it. It's like the universe took everything that I love — and I'm not just talking about physical stuff here, though definitely that, too — and poured it all into this one amazing vessel, this one perfectly beautiful, perfectly wonderful human being. I couldn't not love you. I feel like there's some law of physics that insists that I must, no matter the circumstance, it just had to happen that I would start falling for you. And keep falling for you forever, because it sure isn't going to stop. And I feel like if we had met for the very first time right now, today, that within a few moments I would feel just this same way. There is something truly magical about our connection, babe. I feel like we were guided here, even though it involved both of us making decisions in the past that lock us out of certain decisions for our future, at least without making some uncomfortable changes. How else can you explain me landing here, three doors down from the woman who would so thoroughly capture the attention of this heart?

It's a new year, babe, and we've come so far. I could scarcely even imagine ringing one in with you a year ago, and yet, there we were… Wish I could have stayed later, gotten more time spent with you (god, I love spending time with you…), but, well, you know…

On this day last year, I wrote about how I had considered making “kissing you” a new year's resolution. I said that I decided against it, because I wouldn't want you to feel like we had to, or that I'd be disappointed if it didn't happen. And it didn't, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a tiny bit disappointed, but… we grew our relationship so much in so many other ways. In ways that are mostly acceptable to those around us. We've become closer than the me of two years ago could have even imagined, let alone the me from back when this all began… Our bond has solidified in so many ways. Once we can, we'll be building our romance atop an incredible base of companionship. I mean, this thing is going to be solid, unshakable. We'll be ready to weather any storm, right from the get go…

So last year I ended up making “kissing you” a stretch goal. That feels right for this year, too. If it happens, whatever the circumstances end up being, then I will be delighted. God, I've been thinking about it every single day of my life for years… I don't know if I've ever thought of anything quite as much as I've thought of your lips… except perhaps your beautiful eyes…

sigh

But even if it doesn't, I know we're going to just keep building up this friendship, just keep getting closer, and closer, our bond tighter, and tighter. And, you know what? Ain't nothing wrong with that.

Happy New Years, baby. We've both had some real trials recently, but having you in my life has made it all so much easier. I can only hope and do my best to try to make sure you feel the same.

From every single corner of my heart to every single corner of yours,
Me.

PS — Gosh but seriously you looked so flippin' delicious last night. I could have just watched you all night long and done nothing else and I would have been happy as a clam. How is it that you are you but also… you know… you?! More perfect in every way than I could have possibly ever hoped for… sigh