Through Shadows to Sunrise

I'm sorry, babe… I know yesterday was a potentially rough, emotional day for you with the things you're dealing with at work. What you probably could have used from me was support, but what you got was me picking at scabs from my current situation…

I guess in my defense, I didn't pick the day, the day picked me… that was where I was most of yesterday, and I am allowed to have and own my emotions and grievances, too. But I didn't have to air them here and now.

There will be a time when we can sit down together and share our traumas… you, holding my hand and gazing at me a little bit sadly as I share mine, and me, holding you in my warm embrace as you share yours…

and then we can begin the work of healing together. And it will be a work. As nice a thought as it is, these things won't just go away magically the moment we're in each other's arms… But, it will be a good work. One that I think we will both do gladly, even when it's hard. You already glow so brightly every single day, babe… I want to see what you can be without any extra weight on your shoulders, and will do everything I can to realize that dream. And I know you'll do the same for me.

And I will never stop striving to be the best man for you, always growing and improving myself, being exactly what you need while retaining all of myself. You will always have all of me. And I know you're no more of a fan of stagnation than I am, so I will always give you the space you need to grow, too. More than that. I'll give you unceasing encouragement and support. Guidance, when you need it and I can provide it. I can be nurturing as fuck, if you want it.

Aw, babe… ours is going to be a story for the ages, I just know it. This kind of love doesn't happen every day. It's like the fusion reaction in the center of a star, putting out the boundless energy that heats and lights our world, making our lives possible. It's like the tides, pressing and pulling against an entire planet to the point that, one day, the moon will be locked above a single point, just as my heart has been and will forever more be locked onto yours. If love is a physical force in this universe, then we must surely be at its center, testing the limits of what the very fabric of time itself can bear…

Baby. What I'm saying is, I love you. And I'm sorry if I'm not perfect, but I am here for you. Always. And I know things are tough right now, but you can only come to morning through the shadows. And sunrise is soon, my love. In all sorts of ways.

Love you.

Yours.