Wanting for You

Babydoll, I write a lot about the things I want for me… your love… your sweet touch… your body, pressed against mine…

But, what about the things I want for you?

Aw, babe, there are so many things. I could spend all day on it… but the last thing I want is for you to be bored, so here's just a few…

I want you to be happy. I know you won't always be, and we'll get to that in a moment. But, my gosh… seeing you smile is like magic for me. The entire world could be going to shit (and it is!), but when I see that joy light up in your eyes, I know everything's gonna be alright. And if I'm ever responsible for even an iota of it… mm, baby, just the thought of it does my heart so much good.

I want you to have a future you look forward to. When you look at me, I want you to see adventures, nights by the campfire, mornings curled up together on the couch. I want you to see us, side-by-side, watching the kids as they reach the various milestones of young adulthood. And beyond. I want you to see the things you've always wanted, but never got to do. Wanna take a dance class? I'm sure we can pretend to have a right foot between us… and you know I'll be laughing right alongside you when it turns out that we don't.

I want you to feel warm and loved. I want thoughts of me to bring that warmth to your heart, always. I want thoughts of me to bring a warmth between your legs, making you long to find yourself a nice quiet corner, even when there's no quiet corner to be found. And on some days, I want you to feel a fullness that reminds you of me as you're making your rounds.

But what I want for you, most of all, is I want for you to feel safe. Protected. Wrapped up in my arms, yes, but also…

I want you to feel safe in what you feel. I want you to trust me — not because I say to, but because I've earned it. When you're feeling something, anything at all, I want to be who you turn to first for comfort and warmth. Validation. I may not always have the best advice, I may not always know quite what to say, but I will always listen. And respect. And if I ever fail — and sadly I probably will — I want you to know that I want to know that, too. So I can learn from the mistakes I've made, and do my best to never do them again.

All of this, all of it is what I mean when I say that I want to be the best man I can be for you. And I know sometimes I've fallen short, and I know I'll sometimes do it again, but I don't stop trying.

I will never stop trying.

But for me, what do I want for me?

Well, babe. All I want for me is to be…

Yours.