The Eternal Optimist

There's something else you should know about me, babe. I think you see that spark of optimism in me. Heck, I think it's part of why you like me. But I wonder if you realize just how deep it runs? Yeah, I mean… I'm human. I get frustrated sometimes. But, like those problems I wrote about the other day at work, I don't ever give up. Not when the reward is so, so promising…

I mean. We're talking heaven-on-earth level of promise here, babe. At least as far as I'm concerned. Even if you throw a plate at me from time to time (but… I'd never corner you into a place you felt a need to, so I ain't worried about that anyways).

I dunno, my sweet love. I just see that shining future, and I can't help but know it's ours for the taking, whatever obstacles might stand in the way.

So, let's take it. I've got a feeling you've already started, even if maybe you've hit a stumbling block or two. And you know I've got a little bit more clean up to do first, but… don't worry, I won't be long behind you.

Until that day, that glorious, wonderful day…

When I'll be right behind you.

Making you make the most beautiful music in the world.

Until then, love you sugar cakes.

See you soon!

PS — Miss you, baby. Guess you'll likely be home soon, but guess I don't actually know. You know, as I'm sure you can guess from me writing here… my natural inclination is to just… flood you with my love and my thoughts and all. But if you ever need room to breathe, baby, just let me know… You won't hurt my feelings. I know, I'm that guy that is all quiet and reserved right up until you unlock me, and then BOOM, most annoying person in the world. And… you know… I know you've got a lot going on, I know things are probably a bit heavy… even if you tend to be as light as ever on our walks, when we get ‘em. But I have been kinda taking a step back elsewhere… it's not that I haven't seen things that make me think of you, or that I think you'd like… hah! Far from it. I'm just… I want to be sensitive to your needs…

But it occurred to me… what if you're doing the same thing? What if you see the things I'm dealing with and think to yourself “Aw, he'd think this is funny… but… well, probably not today…”

What if we're in the midst of a huge dorky standoff, both of us paralyzed by our own fear… at least on that one channel… when the truth is, either one of us could break the current logjam in an instant. And, yeh, it could be me, and maybe it even will be. But… just in case the dork in me wins for another day, just know… I could absolutely use a laugh right now. Or to get a bit teary eyed. Or even just a reminder that Frodo agreed to take the ring all the way to Mount Doom, even though he did not know the way.

Anyways… all that is to say, I miss you. I love every channel of communications we have. I love you. And whenever it is you're heading home, be it today or tomorrow or whenever, I wish you safe travels. And I can't wait for that next walk.

And I really can't wait to get to see that wink.

Yours.

😉