Clarity

I just want to clarify something, babe.

Yes, to me, it's felt like there's been a build up, where for months it absolutely felt like we were on a particular trajectory, and then 2-3 weeks ago that trajectory suddenly seemed to change…

But that's not what broke me. That's not what made the house of cards fall, or made me start questioning everything I've gradually let myself believe over the past few months. Questioning if these words will even be received by the person they're meant for.

It's not even the idea of his hands on you, which is a familiar ache that I know how to handle.

It's that you told me about him publicly claiming you. With glee in your voice. Glee. Like you liked it. An unnecessary addition to a story that was otherwise bearable.

And I just…

I don't know how to process that. I don't know how I'm supposed to react.

Baby, I'm confused and wounded, but…

I'm still yours. Always.

Just… could use some clarity, if you can give it.

Yours.