This is all I've got…

One of these days, you're gonna realize that I'm boring as fuck…

That all I want to do, really, is just curl up and catch up on 25 years of movies with you, in between watching how you move through the world. That's all I need. For entertainment, for sustainment.

But, what do you get out of that?

Unending admiration, I guess… but that on;y goes so far. It won't keep you fed, it won't keep you alive.

But it's what I've got… it's all I've got.

What you've seen so far is it.

I don't have a secret inner world to keep drawing you into… I don't make friends easy, I'm no good at small talk.

All I do, really, is love you and try to get by. And that's… it.

I don't wanna sell you a false bill of goods. Don't wanna have you think the thing that's finally gonna flip you over, pull you under is just right around the corner…

You already have it all. All of it. There's nothing more.

I know it isn't much, but god, I hope it's enough…

Yours, anyways.

…

everything I want… everything I want to be… sigh